Wednesday, May 24, 2017

Weigh In Wednesday

Another Weigh In Wednesday is here...

It's no secret that I have been struggling over the past few weeks but I'm not going to let that stop me from getting on the scale since part of the reason I have gained so much weight over the past year or two is because I chose to ignore it.  I plan on staying accountable through the good AND the bad now.

With things being as crazy as they have been here, my eating is up and my exercise time is still down.  I was lucky last week but this week it caught up with me a little....

Last week I weighed

This week I weigh

It's time to reign this in before I creep back up into the dreaded 180's!

On the exercise front, I logged in
117533 steps = approximately 56 miles
I am up slightly with my mileage from last week but I want to start pulling bigger numbers again. 
I am shooting for at least 75 miles this week.  Who knows if it will happen with all the craziness right now but I am going to try my best!

If you are trying to lose weight/get in shape, how's it going?

Have a great Wednesday!

Tuesday, May 23, 2017

May Groceries Update & Moving Forward

So, about those groceries....

I'll be completely honest.....

I blew it this month!

And, to make matter worse, I accidentally threw out my unrecorded receipts in a spurt of cleaning frenzy!  And, I am NOT going to go through that particular bag of trash because, well, it's just not worth it to me this month.

However, piecing together what I can from memory and my online banking information, I have spent upwards of $700 this month.


In times of stress, I allow stress eating and convenience foods to reign supreme in my house - a combination that is never good for the waist or the budget!

So, as the dust settles down here, I am plugging up the leaks and going to try to right myself by seeing how long I can make what I already have in the kitchen/pantry last.  NO MORE GROCERY SHOPPING! (At least for a little while)  The only exception to this is our farmer's market but even there I plan on keeping my spending on the lower side for at least the next few weeks.

As we eat down our inventory, I am going to be mindful of trying to stash away some freezer meals to help in times of busyness and crisis.  I mean, let's face it, these things happen - maybe not always in the succession they have lately for my family but still a fact of life.

Also, moving forward, I am thinking about bringing back some version of our menu plan/what we have eaten for the week.  While it isn't the most interesting post, I do think it keeps me more accountable so I want to bring it back, even if it's mostly for me.  Although, maybe the next few weeks post will be a little more interesting because I may have to get creative with my meals!  LOL

Am I ready for a challenge like this?  Honestly, I am not 100% sure since I don't know if there are any more "bad things" around the corner BUT continuing on the current path isn't going to be helpful or sustainable either.....

So, I'm going to give it my all and see what I can accomplish!

Does anyone else seem to shop more/fall back on convenience in times of stress/busyness like I do?  Sometimes I feel like I am an extreme case.  Haha!

Monday, May 22, 2017

Positively Monday....

Sorry for the lack of posting over the weekend....

I've been in a funk and figured it would be much better to NOT write than to continue complaining over everything that has been going on around here....

You know those times when everywhere you turn something else bad is happening to you, your family, or someone you love?  Yeah, that's me right now.

However, it's Monday and I am determined to find those silver linings and try to set myself up for a good week!

Let's see what I can scrounge up for positives.....

1.  Papa and I made plans for our anniversary in a couple of weekends!  We have wanted to try a restaurant on the Waterbury/Stowe line in Vermont for quite some time but, every time we have gone on vacation to Vermont, never have the time to do it.  So...We are going to take the four-ish hour drive each way on our anniversary and go to dinner!  While it would be nice to do an overnight, it's really not in the budget at the moment and I can't leave the Guppies to take care of/walk our monster of a dog.  G1 and Ramsey will spend the weekend here (rather than Ramsey's house) so that G2 isn't alone - G2 gets kind of freaked being in the house alone at night.  While the idea of driving that many hours JUST for dinner might sound crazy to you, trust me we have done this sort of thing MANY times in the past - As a matter of fact, before our favorite pizza place closed in Stowe, we would drive up there just to get a pizza!  LOL  I'm really looking forward to this day!  Besides it being our anniversary and having a lot of time to unwind with Papa on the drive, there is something about this area that calms my soul - which is something I desperately need!

2.  I know I am going to jinx this, but, I *think* we have gotten our point across to the nasty Mrs. Bird at the high school - albeit in a roundabout way!  I'm hopeful we have made enough noise so that she knows we know she tampered with G1 grades (without outright accusing her) and will pursue this if needed.

3.  Papa's brother will be transferred to a physical rehab place within the next couple of weeks.  There was an infection the doctors were worried went to his heart but it thankfully did NOT!  While the liver team at Yale is dismissing him from their care, they have brought up a few times that he should try to get/stay as healthy as possible and get back on his feet because "another hospital" may be willing to put him on their transplant list.  Papa told me this was said a couple of times in passing so they are encouraging his brother to find a new route and not give up.  We both really want to see him fight through this addiction and have the best relationships with the people in his life.

4.  I am trying to figure out what the next chapter in life is going to hold since the Guppies are growing up.  In three short years, G2 will be off to college and I don't want to sit here twiddling my thumbs all day!  Yes, I still want to write.  I am trying to decide to what capacity and how I can feel productive and a contributing member of society.  Haha!

5.  I usually don't have much to say that's "good" about my hometown but I feel I have to share this....An old classmate of mine has a daughter who is six and was just diagnosed with leukemia.  While at the hospital, her dad (my classmate) told her that he was going to get a pool for her when she got out of the hospital.  The pool was purchased but no one was available for weeks to install it/set it up.  Not wanting to let his daughter down, the classmate turned to his friends at our hometown's volunteer firehouse and the town's first selectman (another former classmate).  The firehouse partnered with the firehouse from the town my classmate now lives in and they worked together to build the pool and get it ready for his daughter's return home.  I'm so sad that his daughter is sick but so happy that good people came to the rescue to help spread some happiness for his sweet little girl.

Even though I already posted this, I'm adding two more positive things....

6.  Even though our dishwasher broke again, the part that Papa believes to be the problem isn't that expensive a repair AND we can get free shipping for it from Amazon Prime. 

7.  Ramsey is going to be here for dinner tonight...which means I don't have to cook!  He's going to make us Philly Cheesesteak Sandwiches with fries and sautéed asparagus.  YUMMY!

I wish I had some more positives to share.  I am having a hard time pulling any out of my head right now though!

I'm really hoping things and my mood turn around quickly!

Have a great Monday!\

Thursday, May 18, 2017

Gas, Garbage, and an Update on W

Phew! I have spent a TON of my budget on gas this past week!  In total, I spent $62 on gas just since I last updated this!  Lots of running around (multiple times)!  I have about 3/4 of a tank remaining and really hope to make that last as long as possible.  So, if my calculations are correct, I have $38.59 left for gas this month.  It's going to be tight but I refuse to go over!

Light load this week!  Only one 13 gallon kitchen sized bag!  Woo Hoo!

I haven't talked about W (Papa's brother) in a bit and we got some disheartening news today...

He's still in the hospital and was doing fairly well.  He is continuing to be the guy Papa grew up with and whom I remember.


He made a mistake which cost him basically his life.
The doctors have permanently removed him from all transplant lists because they caught him doubling up his pain medication - taking what the nurse gave him AND some of what he brought from home.  The nurse came in, found him passed out with the bottle, and the doctor order Narcan to revive him.
Addiction is a heartbreaking thing guys.  It really is.
Moving forward, the hope is to keep him as mobile and healthy as possible for as long as possible.  But time is now finite and there isn't any rescue from this.
So far, his attitude is okay.  He's beginning the process of making peace with where he is now and where he is heading. 
Papa is okay too but I know he's really hurting and coming to terms with losing his brother at some point in the near distant future.

May has been a tough month around here.  Truly it has.
I'm sorry for being so upset/angry lately.
I'm trying to coax my cheerful self out of the cave she's hiding in....
Maybe some Halo Top ice cream will help!  Haha!

Wednesday, May 17, 2017

Weigh In Wednesday!

Super short post this morning because I have an appointment to get my hair professionally cut and colored for the first time in over two years!  (Thanks Mom for the Mothers Day gift!)

As I have mentioned repeatedly, this past week has been more than stressful....
Add in a dinner and two lunches of fried chicken, twice baked potatoes, and homemade biscuits...
And well it's not like I expected any movement (besides up!) on the scale....

When I got on this morning, I was exactly the same weight as last week to the ounce!


I'm not upset about this at all!  I'm actually relieved because I knew I would get depressed if I saw anything back in the 180's since I have sworn that number off forever!  LOL

I also slacked off a bit with my walking!  Upon review of last week's numbers, I saw that I missed my goal of at least 12K steps TWICE! (first time in over a month!) Both times coincided with prom weekend - Prom day 10,173 steps and Mother's Day when I wasn't feeling well 4.706 steps.

In total last week, I walked 106,330 steps....
equivalent to....

50 miles

Compared to earlier weeks, I was way off my game!

The great news is that I am back on track both eating and stepping wise starting yesterday so hopefully I will see that scale creep down a notch or two next week!

How did you week go if you are trying to lose weight/get healthier?

Tuesday, May 16, 2017

Day Book for Tuesday May 16th, 2017

Sadly I still can't get Guppy 1 to approve any prom photos yet!  Haha!

Outside my window...
It's sunny and absolutely perfect weather today! 

What I am wearing....
Black T shirt, olive green shorts, sneakers

What I am hearing...
The convection oven warming up my lunch, birds chirping, some construction going on down the road.

What I am reading....
I'm re-reading one of my all time favorite books....Weaveworld by Clive Barker!  I haven't read it in at least twenty years so it's almost like reading a new book again since I have forgotten many of the details.  ;)

From the kitchen...
I'm heating up the last of the Mother's Day fried chicken and twice baked potatoes.  I'm quite sure this week isn't going to be great weight wise but, since Papa only makes this once or twice per year, I'm going to enjoy every last morsel.  LOL 
Later I need to bake some brownies for the Guppies to snack on afterschool this week.  And probably make some sort of portable baked breakfast type good for G1.  (Thank goodness G2 is pretty reliable with only wanting her croissants 99% of the time.)

From the learning rooms....
The Guppies have a half day today as the school promotes "Be One" day.....Personally, I am not a fan of this program at our high school.  Here's why:  Be One Day is a day where the school is supposed to "unify" and let the students share their feelings/stories of depression/anxiety and how they overcame it.  Sounds like it would be a very nice day right?  It would be but, to about 80% of the administration and students, the whole thing is a farce.  I have seen the way MY kids with diagnosed issues get treated and it's not always that warm and fuzzy.  Plus, as G1 put it this morning, she gets to sit in an auditorium and listen to the popular kids get up to the podium and complain about how they got a used car for their birthday rather than a new one - very depressing stuff. ((insert eye roll))  If anyone is around my age and remembers their kids watching "As Told By Ginger", there is an episode where the school thinks Ginger is depressed.  Courtney, the rich popular girl, doesn't like all the extra attention Ginger is getting so she comes into school wearing all black, with black eyeliner, bemoaning how depressed she feels.  This sums up our high school's Be One day.

Yesterday I mentioned that I had emailed G1's Senior Experience teacher to see why those future F's were still on PowerSchool.  The email conversation went a little something like this...

Me:  We were very curious as to why our daughter has Fs (and the comment "missing") for two future assignments when a friend has As for the same future assignment.  Please advise.
Teacher:  The dates are placeholders.  She has an all day presentation on the 24th and said you are helping her with the project.  Are you aware of this?
Me:  Yes, I am aware.  I'm not questioning the date.  I am questioning the Fs.  Why would an F be a placeholder?
Teacher:  All fixed
Me:  Thank you
Teacher:  Oh I'm just here to give support and remind the students of dates.  Just because I took the Fs out doesn't mean she is passing. Mrs. R (assistant principal who G1 loves and we have dealt with through the years during the 504 meetings) has the final say and records all the grades. 

Oh really?  I  called Papa and he said to email Mrs. R the entire email chain.  Mrs. R has a right to know that the teacher pretty much just threw her under the bus!   Mrs. R and I have an very nice back and forth regarding the Fs - where she says the teacher is the one who takes care of grades but she's sorry for the extra stress to G1, and then we emailed a bit more about G1 and how much Mrs. R loves her - which we believe wasn't just schmoozing because she has told us the same thing on many occasions.

So where does this all leave us?  It's pointing more and more to the OTHER assistant principal (Mrs. Bird) who went into PowerSchool and changed G1's grades....Don't forget there was another grade she was given an F for that THAT teacher said she had no clue how it got there - AND G1 got a perfect score on it once the teacher graded it.  If anything else happens, we will pursue finding out who put those Fs in there - like Papa said, there are computer fingerprints so it wouldn't be that hard to figure out.  And, if it is Mrs. Bird, we will take her down because she is interfering with student grades.

Think it's over?  Nope!  This morning, G1 has her Senior Experience class where the teacher approaches G1 and apologizes for the "grade mixup".  Then went on to tell my daughter that I was "just down her throat" about it.  I wanted an answer, plain and simple.  I'm sorry that you, Miss Teacher, decided to throw an assistant principal under the bus and I relayed the message.

Honestly, hurry up June 14th!

And with that, I'm off!

Happy Tuesday!

Monday, May 15, 2017

Positively Monday....Sort Of...

Happy Monday everyone!

I am really hoping to get G1's "approval" to share some pictures on my blog from Saturday's prom.  It may prove worse than pulling teeth however but I will do my best!  LOL

I hope everyone enjoyed their Mother's Day!  Mine was quiet, which would have been very lovely if I wasn't feeling sick!  Thankfully, we had already decided that we would "celebrate" Mother's Day (aka do what Mom wants to do!) a few weekends from now with a day trip to Stowe to go hiking.  (Technically, they prefer everyone stay off the mountain until after Memorial Day to protect the trails and ensure "mud season" is completely over.)

Anyway, let's see what I can come up with for "positives" to start this week off right!

1.  G1 had a great time at prom!  Ramsey really stepped up to the plate and was a good sport/doted on her like she was a princess!  I think her self confidence got a very big and much needed boost which makes me very happy!  We all remember the "mean girls" in high school and G1 had fun with the fact that these girls couldn't stop staring at Ramsey, who is a pretty handsome kid. 

2.  Mrs. Bird WAS one of the prom chaperones but left G1 alone.....mostly.  At the end of the night, while in line for their umbrella, G1 saw Mrs. Bird mouth to the principal "That's her" and pointed directly at G1, who actually got a good laugh out of it rather than freaked out.

3.  I learned an...ummmmm...interesting life hack over the weekend....
It is pretty fitting I guess, considering the prom theme was Hollywood Red Carpet....
Apparently many of the "stars" duct tape their chests when a bra won't work with their dresses.  Well, I, in fact, learned how to do that on Saturday night!  And it worked like a charm!  LOL

4.  Mother's Day dinner was AH-MA-ZING!  Papa made me some of my favorite things...
Homemade Buttermilk Fried Chicken
Twice Baked Potatoes
Homemade KFC style biscuits
I'm sure my scale will show it on Wednesday, but it was worth it!  =)

5. We have decided to confront the school on some of the issues surrounding G1.  I wrote an email to a teacher this morning questioning how G1 could have two Fs for future assignments.  I got a reply that these are just "place holders".  I wrote back asking WHY AN F would be a place holder!  So far, no response.  Why am I adding this on my positively Monday list?  Because, while I have faith in G1's guidance counselor, I am beginning to think that *maybe* a little parental heat will stop this crap from happening too.  Instead of sitting back in a pool of anxiety, I have taken some action!  Haha!

I'm not sure I can think of much more than five for today....

Have a great Monday all!