Or I would totally be a reformed Scrooge if I ever had the money!
(Yes I realize that Christmas is over! Haha!)
I have had an extremely rough week and I'm not sure it's going to be better next week either. I have been dealing with a cold thing that in turn triggers my MS symptoms. Papa and I have been dealing with issues with Guppy 1's teachers. And I have been thinking a lot about what happened this week on my blog....
Which has turned out to be a really good thing actually!
All the comments (including those not posted and the words of trolls) had me really doing some soul searching....
I'm not a confident person. And, up until now, I have always had a "thin skin".
I have done some really growing in the last few days.
And, crazy as it is for me to say this...
There are things about me which make me truly happy. So weird to say that after all this time on Earth! One of the biggest things I am happy with is...
I am a very generous person....Some would say "to a fault". Funny thing is I don't take that to be derogatory.
Being generous is something programmed into my DNA, I swear to God. I always tell everyone that I may have grown up "spoiled" but not a "spoiled brat". Once I realized the "truth" about Santa, I asked for mostly cash for Christmas so I could buy gifts for my friends, family, and people who needed them. While in college, I would use some of my monthly allowance to routinely buy extra groceries for my roommates, Papa, and his roommates. My 21st birthday present from my parents was a weekend trip to NYC that I catered around things I knew Papa would love to do. (By the way, that was an amazing weekend and I enjoyed all the things we did too.) When Papa & I were newly married and didn't have kids, we would donate tons of Christmas presents to needy children. I remember one year I learned about a single mom with a daughter who was having a lot of financial issues. Papa and I took care of their entire Christmas that year.
It's not all about money either. We have made our house a "safe" place for our children's friends to come and be themselves. Guppy 1 has had friends with serious emotional issues (mostly anxiety related) that would come here to talk and relax. We are part of a music community that consider us their "Second Mom & Dad" - which is something we cherish more than I can ever put into words. Guppy 2's friends love being here because we let them be loud and laugh and be regular thirteen year old kids.
And, it translates to what we do for our Guppies too. Papa and I will often do without something we wanted or needed to make sure G1 & G2's needs/wants are met - not all the "wants" of course, but ones we find important/enriching too. We have invested countless hours (through our words and actions) to demonstrate how generosity can enhance your life and those around you.
Why am I rambling on about this?
Because I am a giver. I actually LIKE that about myself. And, it's not something I would ever in a million years (or for a million dollars) change about myself.
Does that take away from our financial health? Yup, I am sure that it does.
Can I find ways to balance out my giving spirit with saving money too? Absolutely! Can I do that without feeling guilty? Probably not! (Case in point...hiding snacks/drinks from G2's friends this week! Haha)
Anyway, I really hope you will all continue reading my little blog and following my journey!
I'm going to continue finding ways to be frugal! But, I'm going to do it in ways that work for the unique needs of my family and who I am at heart.
P.S. I have my Freebies post ready to go for tomorrow and I may (or may not) take this weekend off from blogging. Either way, I will definitely be back to posting by Monday with my grocery totals for the month!